Reverb13 Day One
Two posts in one day?? I know, rare. But necessary, as I wanted to close out Nanowrimo, and once again begin the Reverb daily blog project for the month of December. As with last year, there are multiple sources for the prompts, and I will probably go back and forth between two of them, just to keep it interesting.
The prompt for day one is: How do you feel, on this first day, in your mind? In your body? In your heart? In your soul?
My mind feels a bit tired, but excited as well, because for the first time, I completed an entire novel for Nanowrimo. Took some doing, but I got it done. I just need to recover for a few days (or more) from writing fiction, but I’ll be okay, and I think my mind is, in the end, better off for it.
Also, I don’t know if this goes under mind or heart. I guess technically mind. But I am anxious, as I have been generally for the last few years. I keep trying to find the right professional to assess the situation, to see if perhaps something can be done about it. But the last person I tried last month was a total quack. I have someone else in mind, but I have to build up the patience to make the appointment.
In body, I feel a bit off. Generally I am more tired than I like to be as a default, and I am still above the weight I want to be at, despite trying things all year.
In my heart, I feel pleased with some of my accomplishments lately. (See above.) But I also feel more lonely than average. I don’t feel I am connecting with enough new people of my kind, or connecting as well with people I’ve known for years that seem to be changing.
How I feel in my soul is the most difficult to answer, because I don’t know which feelings or observation lie within the realm of the soul as opposed to the heart. What is the essential difference between the two? I don’t have definitive answer, so I’ll just say that a soul is more permanent, and deals more with the basic essence of why I exist on earth, as opposed to how I’m interpreting or reacting to any given day.
Under this definition I’d say my soul, (which would transcend the problems with my mind, I guess) is in decent shape, but longs for more space. More exercise. More opportunity to engage in the things for which it seems to have been designed. In soul, I am perhaps stuck somewhat in neutral in certain ways.
If I were to combine all aspects of my existence and come up with one overall well being number, I guess I’d give myself about a 6 out of a possible 10. Not miserable, but not fulfilled as often as I should be, probably.